In the end (reanimation mix) -lp

Cool song, and almost totally different from in the end too.
i couldnt find the damned song anywhere! (my searching skills are going worse) so make do with an anime…

[It starts with one]

And multiplies till you can taste the sun
And burn by the sky, you try to take it from
But if it falls
There’s no place to run
It’s crumbling down and

[It's so unreal]

They’re dealing you in to determine your end
And sending you back again to places you’ve been
And bending your will
Till it breaks you within
And still they

[Fill their eyes]

With the twilight through the sky light and the highlights on a frame of steel
See the brightness of your likeness as I write this on a pad

[To the way I feel]

Am I screaming?
Am I dreaming?
As it seeming that you played your part
Like your heartless take apart
This in the darkness but i know that

I tried so hard and got so far
But in the end, it doesn’t even matter
I had to fall to lose it all
But in the end it doesn’t even matter

As I made up my mind
On what there is not are to be
Held back by the battles they fought for me
Calling me to be part of their property
And now I see that I

[Get no chance]

I get no break
Fakes and snakes quickly lead to mistakes
And as the tight rope within
Slowly starts to thin
I can only hope that they

[Close their eyes]

To the twilight, through the sky light and the highlights on a frame of steel
See the brightness of your likeness as I write this on a pad

[To the way I feel]

Am I screaming?
Am I dreaming?
As it seeming that you played your part
Like your heartless take apart
This in the darkness but I know that

I tried so hard and got so far
But in the end, it doesn’t even matter
I had to fall to lose it all
But in the end it doesn’t even matter

{I put my trust in you
{Pushed as far as I can go
{For all this
{There’s only one thing you should know

I put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
For all this
There’s only one thing you should know

I put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
For all this
There’s only one thing you should know

I tried so hard and got so far
But in the end, it doesn’t even matter
I had to fall to lose it all
But in the end it doesn’t even matter

Get the fuck out of my life. I don;t know you anymore.

I’m losing almost everything. Life is becoming so screwed. Work is being cut down, but exams have been doubled. I’m screwing in academics, screwing in getting what i want, even losing my focus on a god damned soccer ball. dan and dai had the honour of watching me zero-stepping the soccer ball today. aye, illegally, on that measly patch outside our classroom we call grass. And while i lose almost everything, i still have emotions. can;t i do away with those too?

Phailz

(9:09 PM) *jiakun ;;: you want jo-ann’s msn issit?
(9:09 PM) *jiakun ;;: it’s you rite!
(9:10 PM) julian;: haha
(9:10 PM) julian;: wadeva
(9:10 PM) *jiakun ;;: wadeva means yes or no!
(9:10 PM) julian;: yes or no also can
(9:10 PM) *jiakun ;;:
(9:10 PM) *jiakun ;;: where got liddat one
(9:10 PM) julian;: u want give then yes u dun want give then no
(9:10 PM) *jiakun ;;: you want then i give you don’t wnat then i don’t give
(9:10 PM) julian;: haha
(9:10 PM) *jiakun ;;: bwahahaha
(9:10 PM) julian;: so clever
(9:10 PM) julian;: ya la
(9:11 PM) julian;: 1 mroe doesnt hurt
(9:11 PM) *jiakun ;;: budden i think you’re gonna get me screwed rite
(9:11 PM) julian;: like how
(9:11 PM) julian;: dun wan give dunnid give excuses
(9:12 PM) *jiakun ;;: like anyhow talk
(9:12 PM) *jiakun ;;: RITE! i knew it. you’re the one giving excuses.
(9:12 PM) julian;: i give excuses?
(9:12 PM) julian;: just give me if u’re ok with it
(9:13 PM) *jiakun ;;: but i dunno what you’re gonna do
(9:13 PM) *jiakun ;;: later you anyhow
(9:13 PM) julian;: i anyhow wad
(9:14 PM) *jiakun ;;: how i know you
(9:14 PM) *jiakun ;;: anyhow say stuff
(9:14 PM) julian;: say wad stuff?
(9:14 PM) julian;: lol u want just give
(9:14 PM) *jiakun ;;: HOW I KNOW YOU!!
(9:15 PM) *jiakun ;;: since i dunno what you’re gonna do and it’s dangerous, i won’t.
(9:15 PM) julian;: haha
(9:16 PM) julian; has changed his/her name to “julian; why does jiakun refuse to tell me jo-ann’s msn?”
(9:16 PM) julian; why does: haha
(9:16 PM) julian; why does: u said u’ll gimme lor
(9:16 PM) *jiakun ;;: cos i din think properly
(9:16 PM) julian; why does: why u liddat
(9:16 PM) julian; why does: u like her?
(9:16 PM) *jiakun ;;: no
(9:16 PM) *jiakun ;;: that’s why
(9:17 PM) *jiakun ;;: if i did then i’d give you and who cares whether you tell her that or not
(9:17 PM) julian; why does: i won’t say anything to her about u ok?
(9:17 PM) *jiakun ;;: but if i don’t then you anyhow say then that’s BADD
(9:17 PM) *jiakun ;;: you can’t be trusted de luhh
(9:17 PM) *jiakun ;;: don’t even try
(9:17 PM) julian; why does: aiyoh or u want me ask from zacky
(9:18 PM) julian; why does: he’s dying to tell me
(9:18 PM) *jiakun ;;: whatever lor
(9:18 PM) *jiakun ;;: you better not anyhow say anything
(9:18 PM) julian; why does: just tell me la
(9:18 PM) *jiakun ;;: zacky’s DYING to tell you ISN’T he
(9:18 PM) *jiakun ;;: i’ll give him the HONOUR of doing that then
(9:18 PM) *jiakun ;;: why are you so DESPO anyway
(9:18 PM) julian; why does: wait ah
(9:18 PM) *jiakun ;;: like SHAUN liddat
(9:19 PM) *jiakun ;;: who goes around talking to EVERYONE from slc like he’s part of it liddat lol.
(9:19 PM) julian; why does: haha
(9:19 PM) julian; why does: why u so agitated
(9:19 PM) *jiakun ;;: i’m not
(9:19 PM) julian; why does: haha
(9:19 PM) *jiakun ;;: i’m like doing lit timed assignment
(9:19 PM) julian; why does: not sia
(9:19 PM) *jiakun ;;: i just finished my THINKING session
(9:20 PM) *jiakun ;;: i’m agitated (if that’s what you want to call it) cos i have no bleedy idea what you’re going to tell her
(9:20 PM) julian; why does: wl
(9:20 PM) julian; why does: i msn ppl also cannot
(9:20 PM) *jiakun ;;: just don’t make her think i like her cos i don’t.
(9:20 PM) julian; why does: gimme msn la
(9:20 PM) julian; why does: i tell zacky u agitated
(9:21 PM) *jiakun ;;: ask her yourself luhh
(9:21 PM) julian; why does: then he also say he agitated
(9:21 PM) julian; why does: wl
(9:21 PM) *jiakun ;;: lol tell zacky anything you want mann
(9:21 PM) julian; why does: julian; why does jiakun refuse to tell me jo-ann’s msn? says (9:19 PM):
lol just tell me
julian; why does jiakun refuse to tell me jo-ann’s msn? says (9:19 PM):
he damn agitated now
13slc; [_zachary]] | LOVE-ED | adiCOLOR says (9:19 PM):
NO
13slc; [_zachary]] | LOVE-ED | adiCOLOR says (9:19 PM):
IM NOT
13slc; [_zachary]] | LOVE-ED | adiCOLOR says (9:19 PM):
IM AGITATED TOO
13slc; [_zachary]] | LOVE-ED | adiCOLOR says (9:19 PM):
RARRRR
(9:21 PM) julian; why does: wl
(9:21 PM) julian; why does: i dun want to ask from SHAUN la
(9:21 PM) *jiakun ;;: i don’t give random people’s msns to random people..just like i don’t give handphone numbers or share other people’s essays. like ben’s one.
(9:21 PM) *jiakun ;;: why you so despo want to get it?
(9:22 PM) julian; why does: never u mind (:
(9:22 PM) *jiakun ;;: i thought zacky was DYING TO TELL YOU ?
(9:22 PM) julian; why does: he become agitated also!
(9:22 PM) *jiakun ;;: hahaha
(9:22 PM) julian; why does: because u agitated
(9:22 PM) julian; why does: he say he also agitated
(9:22 PM) *jiakun ;;: cos you suck dumbass
(9:22 PM) julian; why does: lol
(9:22 PM) *jiakun ;;: who wants to give out people’s msn to strangers
(9:22 PM) *jiakun ;;: it’s darn rude
(9:22 PM) julian; why does: wad stranger?!
(9:22 PM) julian; why does: jo-ann’s my brudda’s crush!
(9:22 PM) *jiakun ;;: LOL you”re budda? who’s that
(9:22 PM) julian; why does: sista
(9:23 PM) *jiakun ;;: *your brudda
(9:23 PM) julian; why does: sista xu
(9:23 PM) *jiakun ;;: who’s that
(9:23 PM) *jiakun ;;: XU JIAN FEN?
(9:23 PM) julian; why does: haha
(9:23 PM) julian; why does: i dun kachiau u already la
(9:23 PM) *jiakun ;;: shaddap la i need to do lit assignment
(9:23 PM) *jiakun ;;: yalor
(9:23 PM) julian; why does: send me la
(9:23 PM) *jiakun ;;: send you what?
(9:23 PM) *jiakun ;;: ben’s history essay? no.
(9:23 PM) julian; why does: u do on paper ah
(9:23 PM) *jiakun ;;: her msn? no.
(9:23 PM) *jiakun ;;: lit timed assignment? i wrote it.
(9:24 PM) *jiakun ;;: you’re supposed to
(9:24 PM) *jiakun ;;: he said it in class
(9:24 PM) julian; why does: i know
(9:24 PM) julian; why does: ben’s appearing offline?
(9:24 PM) *jiakun ;;: no
(9:24 PM) *jiakun ;;: more like
(9:24 PM) *jiakun ;;: he blocked you
(9:24 PM) *jiakun ;;: HAHAHAHAH!
(9:24 PM) julian; why does: if i don;t get the msn
(9:24 PM) *jiakun ;;: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!
(9:24 PM) julian; why does: i will tell err… jodie about it
(9:25 PM) julian; why does: oh nah he;s online
(9:25 PM) julian; why does: didnt notice
(9:25 PM) julian; why does: i’ll tell jodie about it!
(9:25 PM) *jiakun ;;: LOL jodie?
(9:25 PM) *jiakun ;;: she’ll slap you
(9:25 PM) julian; why does: lol
(9:25 PM) julian; why does: zack say wan
(9:25 PM) julian; why does: she go slap azck
(9:25 PM) *jiakun ;;: LOL jodie’s not interested in you
(9:26 PM) *jiakun ;;: wait arh
(9:26 PM) julian; why does: im not supposed to get her itnerested in me
(9:26 PM) *jiakun ;;: you want her msn rite
(9:26 PM) julian; why does: 13slc; [_zachary]] | LOVE-ED | adiCOLOR says (9:24 PM):
u will tell err… jodie abt it
(9:26 PM) julian; why does: im supposed to tell her about it, wadeva it is
(9:26 PM) *jiakun ;;: i ask her whether i should tell you how bout that. hahha. she’ll probably say WHY WOULD HE KNOW ME!!
(9:26 PM) julian; why does: lol
(9:26 PM) julian; why does: wl
(9:26 PM) julian; why does: u not fun la
(9:26 PM) julian; why does: i dun wan already
(9:27 PM) julian; why does jiakun refuse to tell me jo-ann’s msn? has changed his/her name to “julian;”
(9:27 PM) julian; has changed his/her personal message to “SCREW”
(9:27 PM) julian;: eh i still want
(9:27 PM) julian;: tell me
(9:28 PM) *jiakun ;;: haha i ask her hor
(9:28 PM) *jiakun ;;: 3
(9:28 PM) *jiakun ;;: 2
(9:28 PM) *jiakun ;;: 1
(9:28 PM) *jiakun ;;: i’ll say like
(9:28 PM) *jiakun ;;: heyy…someone random from my class wants your msn. and he already got your handphone number from ben.
(9:28 PM) julian;: wl
(9:28 PM) julian;: asshole
(9:28 PM) julian;: haha
(9:29 PM) *jiakun ;;: his name’s julian
(9:29 PM) julian;: noooo
(9:29 PM) julian;: not my name
(9:29 PM) *jiakun ;;: if you see an sms from someone called HUANGJI it’s him
(9:29 PM) *jiakun ;;: rite!!
(9:29 PM) *jiakun ;;: hahaha
(9:29 PM) *jiakun ;;: i’ll say that
(9:29 PM) *jiakun ;;: right now
(9:29 PM) *jiakun ;;: hahahahahaha!
(9:29 PM) julian;: dun say name can alreayd
(9:29 PM) *jiakun ;;: haha i WILL
(9:29 PM) julian;: then i must get the msn
(9:29 PM) julian;: ur choice (:
(9:30 PM) *jiakun ;;: so you want or not?
(9:30 PM) *jiakun ;;: if you wnat i’ll say your name
(9:30 PM) *jiakun ;;: hahaha
(9:30 PM) julian;: if u say my name u must gimme
(9:30 PM) *jiakun ;;: lol i’ll only give you if
(9:30 PM) *jiakun ;;: she says give you
(9:30 PM) *jiakun ;;: HAHAHA like DUH
(9:30 PM) julian;: then u dun say my name
(9:30 PM) *jiakun ;;: LOL NO WAY
(9:30 PM) julian;: then say my name alreayd i still cannot get!
(9:30 PM) julian;: thats not fair lor
(9:31 PM) *jiakun ;;: too bad
(9:31 PM) *jiakun ;;: so YES OR NO?
(9:31 PM) julian;: if u say my name and i dun get it
(9:31 PM) *jiakun ;;: you won’t know whether i said your name
(9:32 PM) julian;: then u hav happy activities at the back of the class
(9:32 PM) *jiakun ;;: hahaha i don’t go there.
(9:32 PM) julian;: then thats ur problem isnt i?
(9:32 PM) *jiakun ;;: so you’re saying
(9:32 PM) *jiakun ;;: NO luhh
(9:32 PM) *jiakun ;;: so i don’t ask luhh
(9:32 PM) *jiakun ;;: rite?
(9:32 PM) julian;: oh dun worry u’llgo there, someway or another (:
(9:32 PM) *jiakun ;;: that’s what you mean
(9:32 PM) julian;: are u going to say my name?
(9:32 PM) julian;: yes or no
(9:32 PM) *jiakun ;;: YES
(9:32 PM) julian;: exactly
(9:32 PM) *jiakun ;;: so you don’t want to ask rite!
(9:33 PM) *jiakun ;;: ok
(9:33 PM) julian;: ask la
(9:33 PM) julian;: i want to ask
(9:33 PM) *jiakun ;;: but i’ll get bonded
(9:33 PM) *jiakun ;;: so
(9:33 PM) *jiakun ;;: NO
(9:33 PM) julian;: u can say my name
(9:33 PM) *jiakun ;;: i want to have kids please
(9:33 PM) julian;: dun worry
(9:33 PM) julian;: i’ll get u into good shape before that
(9:33 PM) *jiakun ;;: no thanks
(9:34 PM) julian;: so ultimately
(9:34 PM) julian;: u dun dare to gimme right?
(9:34 PM) *jiakun ;;: ya cos you’ll bond me
(9:34 PM) julian;: u gimme that won;t happen
(9:34 PM) julian;: theoretically u dun gimme that wont happen too…
(9:35 PM) *jiakun ;;: THEORETICALLY
(9:35 PM) *jiakun ;;: no wayy you can’t be trusted
(9:35 PM) julian;: ok then i wont bond u ok?
(9:35 PM) julian;: now go as
(9:35 PM) julian;: *ask
(9:35 PM) *jiakun ;;: ok
(9:36 PM) *jiakun ;;: asked
(9:36 PM) *jiakun ;;: hahaha i mentioned your WHOLE name in all it’s glory
(9:36 PM) julian;: THANK YOU MAN
(9:36 PM) julian;: (undetectable sarcasm)
(9:38 PM) *jiakun ;;: hahaha she talk and talk but never answer the question yet
(9:39 PM) julian;: silence means consent
(9:39 PM) julian;: she never say no right?
(9:39 PM) *jiakun ;;: she talk about all kinds of other stuff
(9:39 PM) *jiakun ;;: like are you weird
(9:39 PM) julian;: thats almost yes already la
(9:39 PM) julian;: im so interesting that even jkun loves me
(9:40 PM) *jiakun ;;: still never answer…
(9:40 PM) *jiakun ;;: RAO YI DA QUAN
(9:40 PM) julian;: she doesnt mind wad
(9:41 PM) julian;: thats why she doesnt answer
(9:41 PM) *jiakun ;;: no she’s talking about abnormal people
(9:41 PM) *jiakun ;;: never answer doesn’t equate never talk
(9:41 PM) *jiakun ;;: you make me sound like a NAG you know i asked that question like 4 times alr
(9:41 PM) julian;: not i make u sound like a nag
(9:41 PM) julian;: u make me sound like a nag
(9:42 PM) julian;: thats throwing my face on the floor and stomping on it 50 times over
(9:42 PM) julian;: so u shd give it to me
(9:43 PM) *jiakun ;;: answer le
(9:43 PM) *jiakun ;;: (9:40 PM) 13slc; [I♥SLCOT][CONCEPT]IAN jo-ann. [I♥GODmost] wanna hear God’s voice. 桌恩:
HAHHA I DONT KNOW

(9:43 PM) *jiakun ;;: ***********@hotmail.com
(9:44 PM) julian;: sigh jiakun
(9:44 PM) *jiakun ;;: thank me for convincing her
(9:44 PM) julian;: u fail the test
(9:44 PM) *jiakun ;;: (9:40 PM) 13slc; [I♥SLCOT][CONCEPT]IAN jo-ann. [I♥GODmost] wanna hear God’s voice. 桌恩:
fine fine. prob wont talk to him anyways….

(9:44 PM) julian;: good luck in your future endeavours
(9:44 PM) *jiakun ;;: haha DIAOW you know i said she’s MEAN to convince her? hahaha
(9:44 PM) *jiakun ;;:
(9:44 PM) julian;: nvm
(9:44 PM) julian;: continue ur msning with her!
(9:45 PM) *jiakun ;;: lol DIAOW
(9:45 PM) julian;: and thank me for a conversation starter!
(9:45 PM) *jiakun ;;: i was already
(9:45 PM) *jiakun ;;: before you started talking to me
(9:45 PM) *jiakun ;;: HAHAHAHAHA
(9:45 PM) *jiakun ;;: but don’t think anyhow
(9:45 PM) *jiakun ;;: we talking about…BEN
(9:45 PM) julian;: i nv sad u werent!
(9:45 PM) julian;: yeah go on talking
(9:45 PM) julian;: dun make me interrupt this intercourse
(9:45 PM) *jiakun ;;: what intercourse
(9:45 PM) *jiakun ;;: YUCKS man that sounds so sick
(9:45 PM) julian;: ??
(9:46 PM) julian;: wads sick/
(9:46 PM) *jiakun ;;: -nothing-
(9:46 PM) julian;: haha
(9:46 PM) *jiakun ;;: sighz

3n language

7 months after the 2N legacy, it is sad to say 2n Language is almost extinct.

Fear not! It is now replaced with 3N Language (a lot less colourful, sadly)!

Basic Vocab list:

Save the earth my foot!
Used to express disgust at playing soccer in an aircon room

贱！
Used to express disgust at playing soccer in an aircon room

Wullyyyyyyyyy
New and improved version of lily/lam!

Zero style
New gunz style that is still under construction. While k style involves spamming keys to dodge, zero style involves dodging by just stoning!

GG No Remake
Used for tests. Means that the test is hard, yet there will be no retest

Old Man Lee
Thy great MM

Old Ben Lee
Math teacher

Father Lee
Math teacher

$627
Damages from playing soccer in the classroom. “So you think you got $627? dun play already la!”

起立！
to warn that a chinese teacher is coming

class stand!
to warn that a non-chinese teacher is coming

COS WE PWN YOU

TWO NIL. GET THAT STR8. STOP LOOKING DOWN ON US, YOU CAN BE THE NEXT.

i shall be himbo for once (yeah, i mean, this’s my first time right?)
<333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333

congrats! for once, the ever picky julian shall not complain about our running today. workrate was EXCELLENT.

and it seems karl sneaked into the 3k team. nvm. WE WON DAMMIT.

iSpark sucks yeah? c’mon show me what u ppl have got.

grats zachary zhicong(xD) for scoring two goals!

grats yuxuan unknown for saving two one-on-ones!

gr8 job by wilfie and bing  yuxuan to screw their defence down the middle and daniel and huang ji on the two sides! and andai for holding the defence with me!

we r0×0rs! totally executed.

three cans of red bull and a half melted chunky D:. kevin and karl still trying to niao me lol. cmon la show me what they’ve got. karl’s tackling is so lol, he just slides blindly, i go for the ball.

the field today was bad though. i got screwed right from the start, couldnt reverse cause i couldnt get a grip on the grass. but our gr8 keeper saved it.

mmm, im really lazy tired shall stop here

damn funny, this is wad someone said about spoilers. basically before this he was just reiterating that if u dun like spoilers, dun look for them in the first place so stop complaining.

“However… if you’re a friend on my MySpace… UNLUCKY, cos I am going to bulletin-spam that shit, non-stop. I might even comment the people whom I know it’ll upset the most.

I’m a champion friend. Ha.

Love it. xx”

Com

This is just a few random stuff I like about my current computer.

ObjectDock
AltDesk
Firefox (Greasemonkey+NoScript+Firebug) (I’ve yet to find foxytunes, fasterfox and videodownloader useful)
MSN messenger plus

Sorry zhaoxing, i still prefer windows media player over itunes.

SP open

Saturday and Sunday were bad. I had SP Open Chinese Chess competition, so in the end no time to do homework. Thank god today racial harmony day celebration I got one more day. Like so yay man.

Results:

Secondary School Chinese Chess 2nd
Secondary School Chinese Chess 3rd
JC/Poly Chinese Chess 1st
Secondary School International Chess 2nd
Secondary School Weiqi 1st
Secondary School Weiqi 2nd
Secondary School Weiqi 3rd
JC/Poly Weiqi 1st
JC/Poly Weiqi 3rd
Secondary School Overall Champion
JC/Poly Overall Champion

rofl. sweep.

but this comp i screwed like shit. i realised being emo can help you score 7 goals straight against lester, chiong 50% in gunz even if you are in expert channel, BUT you still cannot win chess games.

damn off form. 3 win 3 lose. liang jie also but liang jie 3 win 1 draw 2 lose.

both days same. before, emo. during, emo. after, HIGH.

talk about comp first la. play all the guai lan jc teams. then play temasek jc. liang jie too tired so anyhow play. i want play that fiona (tmd! i must take revenge la, play ye3 qi2 2 yrs ago and lost…)

then nothing much la, i just keep losing, win one tyco match, win one match because of green tea, win one because anyhow play. then i think it was last round…

CAT HIGH BABY FACE DRAW RV CHINA GUY WTF.

wah piang that cat high baby damn good in forcing draw, raffles cup also do that to me. tay siang hock’s disciple some more.

then that rv guy damn pro now, shit la i should have beaten him in raffles cup, now he’s like impossible to stop le.

zi xian’s 45 games unbeaten record was broken! lol

aiyah i damn sian thats why im blogging like shit now.

oh and we gt damn high after the competition, talking about some, uhm, random pei hwa girl. then talk about organising hwa chong cup, someone say invite nanyang girl’s and we laughed like hell, so we thought of inviting all the girls’ schools lmao. then collect $10 each and hold the competition in the carpark. then we also created the timed scissors paper stone game, damn funny i got a video but don’t bother to upload.

bye. shall chiong my weekend work now.

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lol today damn funny

found kailin’s blog. she’s so cute now LOL. and i’m going to get murdered by her.

and some senior was telling me abt a crush on hannah, i was laughing like hell la.

DIEEEEEEEEE

tmr henry’s team 1st, mine 2nd, ny’s 3rd, lam’s 4th.

CHIONGGG

probably the best team in the world

screw it.

guaidai the tactical shield commando has fallen. i think. dan, zack, dai me. yay.

and now, somehow, 3n has been spinning shit out of their mouths. i was like, wtf when i heard that.

that asshole deserves to have his third leg skewered like a banana split.

zack i lub u